There has been a silence around this page recently. In the beginning after Savannah passed I didn't post everyday. Of course I was finding myself busy with funeral arrangements and wrapping my mind around the fact that I had just lost my anticipated fourth child. Lately, with the wonderful Christmas season upon us I have found myself busy yet again.
As I mentioned in my earlier post, life is good again. Savannah's memories will always linger, but my husband and I smiled as we talked about how the pain lingers no more. Last night, we agreed it was time to pack up her stuff until the time we might need it again. You know, with the whole 50-50 chance thing. We know that we want different furniture for the next baby. Savannah never did and will never use the room. That's okay. It was her's. We will always remember "Savannah's room." She has a much better home now.
Saying goodbye is a positive thing. We accept that she is gone. She will always be "ours," but she has passed like a spring breeze. The love in our hearts is the important thing to always keep around. Though my blog posts have become fewer, I still plan on writing. On Savannah's first birthday I plan on making this blog into a book.
A year of grief and growth.
There was sadness, but there has been tremendous growth as well. I feel like a better person because of that special soul that graced us with her presence for eight short days. Eight days, I will always be grateful.
Savannah, mommy and daddy are still keeping their promise to you little one.
The promise we made to you in our arms your last night...
That we will always be together.
Coming up on seven years December 27th,
precious girl... with many years of love to spare!
But 2011? It might just be one of the best years of our lives.
Pink or blue... you tell me?
*Smiles & Winks*