Most people love their birthdays. I am not much of a celebrator. I acknowledge that as you get older, in your thirty's to be exact, birthday's become less important to you and those around you. Being a grown up entails, a phone call, a few happy birthday's here and there, some cards, maybe a few gifts, but the thoughts stop there. And that is okay by me. Especially this year... Because today cuts like a knife. 365 days ago today, Savannah "officially" became apart of our lives. There will NEVER be a birthday present that lives up to the gift of her life developing and growing inside of me.
Today I am making *24* birthday wishes,
in spirit of the *33* candles Stacey would put on a cake for me.
I wish for a bright and vibrant New Year.
I wish for a vacation for my favorite person and I.
I wish for a healthy baby boy or girl.
I wish for happiness for my friends and family
struggling through rough times right now.
(You know who you are...)
I wish for an opportunity to go on a Mission trip.
I wish I could look into
Savannah's eyes one last time.
I wish we will eventually get the Great Dane
puppy we have talked about sometime in the future.
I wish for more patience and understanding
through each of my days.
I wish I didn't let people hurt me as
often as I do.
I wish I didn't have to pack up Savannah's room.
I wish people weren't heartless &
I didn't have to worry about things
being stolen from Savannah's gravesite.
(In case you missed that, it happend.)
I wish for more date nights with my husband.
I wish for happiness and joy for my three
living little ones.
I wish for a enjoyable trip to Hawaii that my husband
has planned for us later this coming year!
I wish for doing more outdoorsy things with my husband.
Because he REALLY wants to with me! (Heehee)
I wish I would go get my California Driver's License.
We haven't lived in Kentrucky since 2007.
And I am still driving with an "Unbridled Spirit."
(That's just pure laziness there.)
I wish for new couches, coffee table, and end tables.
(Shallow I know.)
I wish to read "The Love Dare,"
and complete all of the daily gestures
on my wonderful husband.
(I Love Fireproof)
I wish to create a new "nursery."
With all of my heart, since my heart just wasn't
in it with Savannah, and now we know why.
I wish to volunteer in Church more.
I wish to remember to kiss my husband more,
and say "I love you" often.
I wish we didn't live in a two story house.
We are already outgrowing this space.
Single story, two car garage, LARGE backyard,
1600-1700 square feet would be better than 1300...
I wish I could convince my husband that Mini Vans
were the bees knees.
Or maybe a New Toyota Sequioa?
Obviously gas mileage isn't an issue with our
Did I mention I wish it wasn't my birthday?
I wish that my life was exactly how it is now.
Cheer's to thirty.
I hear it's "flirty, & thriving."