365 days.

That's right. I have officially made it through another 365 days and embark on another new age as of 7:43am this morning. I have a dear friend, whom I met through my loss of Savannah. She too also lost a tiny person, precious to her soul. This friend, assures me that I don't look my actual age. She truly believes in her heart of hearts that I was "actually" thrity two years old. Thanks Stacey, I am not really sure if that is a complement. Heaven help me when it IS my thirty third birthday...

Most people love their birthdays. I am not much of a celebrator. I acknowledge that as you get older, in your thirty's to be exact, birthday's become less important to you and those around you. Being a grown up entails, a phone call, a few happy birthday's here and there, some cards, maybe a few gifts, but the thoughts stop there. And that is okay by me. Especially this year... Because today cuts like a knife. 365 days ago today, Savannah "officially" became apart of our lives. There will NEVER be a birthday present that lives up to the gift of her life developing and growing inside of me.

Today I am making *24* birthday wishes,

in spirit of the *33* candles Stacey would put on a cake for me.

*Blow* #1

I wish for a bright and vibrant New Year.

*Blow* #2

I wish for a vacation for my favorite person and I.

*Blow* #3

I wish for a healthy baby boy or girl.

*Blow* #4

I wish for happiness for my friends and family

struggling through rough times right now.

(You know who you are...)

*Blow* #5

I wish for an opportunity to go on a Mission trip.

*Blow* #6

I wish I could look into

Savannah's eyes one last time.

*Blow* #7

I wish we will eventually get the Great Dane

puppy we have talked about sometime in the future.

*Blow* #8

I wish for more patience and understanding

through each of my days.

*Blow* #9

I wish I didn't let people hurt me as

often as I do.

*Blow* #10

I wish I didn't have to pack up Savannah's room.

*Blow* #11

I wish people weren't heartless &

I didn't have to worry about things

being stolen from Savannah's gravesite.

(In case you missed that, it happend.)

*Blow* #12

I wish for more date nights with my husband.

*Blow* #13

I wish for happiness and joy for my three

living little ones.

*Blow* #14

I wish for a enjoyable trip to Hawaii that my husband

has planned for us later this coming year!

*Blow* #15

I wish for doing more outdoorsy things with my husband.

Because he REALLY wants to with me! (Heehee)

*Blow* #16

I wish I would go get my California Driver's License.

We haven't lived in Kentrucky since 2007.

And I am still driving with an "Unbridled Spirit."

HAHA!!!

(That's just pure laziness there.)

*Blow* #17

I wish for new couches, coffee table, and end tables.

(Shallow I know.)

*Blow* #18

I wish to read "The Love Dare,"

and complete all of the daily gestures

on my wonderful husband.

(I Love Fireproof)

*Blow* #19

I wish to create a new "nursery."

With all of my heart, since my heart just wasn't

in it with Savannah, and now we know why.

*Blow* #20

I wish to volunteer in Church more.

*Blow* #21

I wish to remember to kiss my husband more,

and say "I love you" often.

*Blow* #22

I wish we didn't live in a two story house.

We are already outgrowing this space.

Single story, two car garage, LARGE backyard,

1600-1700 square feet would be better than 1300...

*Blow* #23

I wish I could convince my husband that Mini Vans

were the bees knees.

Or maybe a New Toyota Sequioa?

Obviously gas mileage isn't an issue with our

guzzler now!

*Blow* #24

Did I mention I wish it wasn't my birthday?

*Bloooow*

(#25-33)

I wish that my life was exactly how it is now.

Cheer's to thirty.

I hear it's "flirty, & thriving."