I couldn't bring myself to hide this pain
from people who ignore the unavoidable.
So I stayed home. I turned the ringers off. I snuggled up under the covers. I listened intently to the silence and I cried. My heart welcomed Savannah to snuggle up under my chin and celebrate Thanksgiving with her mommy.
We didn't need a feast to do so. We didn't need 50 guests around us to do so. We just needed a moment to ourselves. Mother and daughter. Finally today, I was thankful.
And then I slept.
I slept until there was no more sunlight in the sky.
It shouldn't be like this.