Saturday, October 23, 2010

Hello again.

Good Morning Savannah,

Today is your two month anniversary! {Yep, I am still counting. Don't you think I'll ever stop!} The fall weather has finally graced us with it's presence. I woke today with the grey clouds and pitter patter of rain drops outside.

Just another way I will always think of you. Today feels like the day of your funeral. Amazing that it rained that day!

I still miss you sweet heart. I think of you playing in heaven periodically throughout the days. I'm sure your life is so happy now. I can't wait to meet you there someday!

I've slowed down with talking about you now. {Except here ofcourse.} Daddy and I go places and no one ever brings up your name. I think they worry about our reaction. Or they just don't know what to say. I don't wanna stop talking about you though. I want every one to continue bringing you up in conversation. But, I know I have to realize that everyone else in the world didn't know you like your daddy and I do. I still talk to daddy though. We love you, and your pictures will always remain in the frames on our walls. You are always going to be a big part of our family. I don't think daddy will ever get tired of hearing your name.

I returned some of your things Savannah. I hope you understand. All of your outfits are still hanging on their little pink hangers in your closet though. I am getting so anxious about seeing your headstone! I can't stand the fact that your grave site is so bare without it.

I hope the sweater and cotton tights that mommy, daddy, and grandma picked for you are keeping you warm pretty girl. Two months old already. Where has the time gone? A good friend of mommies told her that you are timeless now. I love that... I love you. Just wanted to remind you Savannah. 

Hugs and kisses sent up to heaven. See you in my dreams...



Stacey said...

I did not realize that it has only been 2 months. I am so sorry hun. I remember those first fewe days, weeks, months and the pain is so unbearable and so raw. I remember going into Jaleel's room & crying so hard I am sure Jaleel heard me all the way up from heaven but my arms ached so much to hold him.
I picture Savannah and all of her angel friends having fun in heaven where there is no pain, no death, only love. I can't wait to get to heaven and see my Jaleel but also to meet all of his angel friends! (((HUGS)))
Btw... I know others will tire of hearing of your angel but know so many of us look forward to your letters to Savannah & hearing her name and learning more about her with each post!

Tina said...

Dear Megan,

I am so glad that you are continuing to talk and share with us about Savannah. My Sweet Sister I want to listen to anything and everything you want to talk about her and share about her.

I'm sorry that it feels like the day of her funeral for you today. Please know that I'm praying for you. The song that always starts playing "I will praise you in this storm" is my favorite! But as I hear the music playing, the lyrics being sung and I read your beautiful words for your beautiful precious little Angel I Cry! They are tears for you but they are also healing tears for me.

Thank you so much for your very touching comment you left on my Blog yesterday morning! You touched me so that I cried! For me that says a lot!

Let me just say that As much as you are Blessed to have Savannah as your Daughter, She is just as Blessed to have you as her Mommy! I can just hear her as she is looking down at you & saying "Mommy, I Love you so much and I wouldn't want anyone else as my Mommy!! You're the BEST MOMMY IN THE WORLD!"

(((((HHHUUGGSSS))))) To You!

In Christ's Love & Prayers
Sis in Christ

deziann said...

I can't believe how two months has just flown by, seems like just last week was your baby shower. I think about Savannah everyday, and of course of you and your family and every time I think of you all I say a little prayer for you. Happy 2 months Savannah!!