Tuesday, August 23, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

Well Savannah,

We made it. Twelve months have come and gone since they day we met you, and we met your tragedy. And though yes, your condition was a tragedy, your life was anything but. In the past twelve months, I have learned more about life than I have gained on my own. I have learned that though living without you is hard, some days seems unbearable, your mommies heart keeps beating. No matter what I always take in another breath of air. I, along with many other mommies out there, have proven that even when trials seem unbearable, we live through them.

This past year has gone faster than I could have ever imagined. I still receive emails updating me on your current development. Could you possibly be walking already if you were here? This we will never know.

I think of today my sweet little one, as a sigh of relief kind of day. I've learned what the years are going to be like without you here in my arms. I've smiled through the holidays as my heart was breaking, and now today I know what it feels like to look back at your birth. A few nights ago when we celebrated at your party, it was different than today. Today is a day of remembrance. A day of reflection. I remember those final moments of Savannah and mommy. I remember the last few hours of your wiggles and movements. And as vivid as if I were in that day all over, I remember your entrance into the world.

I remember how quickly you were delivered. How PERFECT and beautiful you were. You are. And then the deep purple you turned when you weren't able to take the breath you needed to sustain your precious life. In an instant, you were destined for so much.

The past year, you haven't only changed mommy and daddies life, but you Savannah, were like a tiny ripple in the still waters. And your life, and your love reached out and touched many. Those we know, and those we don't. Your daddy and I are so very blessed to be able to call you ours.

I love you little one. Years will never change this. And I hope, no matter what, you know just how strong that love really is.

Always yours,
Always,

-Mommy

9 comments:

Megan said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Savannah!

Danielle said...

Happy Birthday Baby Girl!
You have touched my life in ways that I will never be able to Thank You for. You are a sweet, special, wonderful and awe inspiring child and I will always hold onto that little face that looked at me 1 year ago today. Bless You Sweet Savannah. Grandma looks forward to the day we can hug one another and be together again.

Danielle said...

Thank you Megan and Koady for giving us the opportunity to meet such a wonderful child. Brief but sweet, she touched many, many lives!!!!!

Darla said...

Happy Birthday, beautiful! I pray your day in heaven is special with all the love and prayers we are all sending your way! Know that you are always in my/our minds and hearts! What has comforted me this year is that I picture my mom/your great grandma holding you and loving on you as we have not been able to. I miss you.

John and Allie Fields said...

Happy Birthday sweet girl. I'm blessed to have found your mama and learn about you!

The Martha Complex said...

Happy birthday to Savannah!

& Thank you for sharing Savannah's story. :)

deziann said...

Happy Birthday Savannah!! I can't believe that it has been a year already. I'm also sure that it hasn't gotten much easier for you (probably not at all), so I hope you know that I'm always here for you if you need me, today or 50 years from now, just let me know...I love you and Savannah and all of your babies.

Jackie said...

Happy Birthday beautiful Savannah. Man this year went fast, but I have really enjoyed getting to know you and your family.

Holly said...

Happy Birthday Savannah ♥♥